Wake me up….when it’s all over!!!

Hey guys! I had planned to share with you a recipe today for Mini Chicken Pot Pies. They turned out like the picture in the recipe, but honestly I just didn’t like them that much. I think they were more like quiche than pot pies. I like the creaminess of pot pies, and this recipe just didn’t cut it!

Anyway, I was going to do another recipe, but then I thought it might be time to just share where I am in regards to food and life.

I’m in this place in my life that is not very comfortable. I accept that it is by choice. But I have felt myself the last week really wanting to just eat, thinking about how good it would feel, and going right to the edge (sometimes a little over), and then pulling myself back.

I would like to numb myself! It’s not that anything is really going on. I’m happy with my life!!! I think it is just that I use to have this solid picture of my future…and now I just don’t. That doesn’t mean I don’t have goals. I have very solid goals, and I am working towards them. But I guess it is just the realization that has come over the past year that we can only control so much.

So I battle between this part of myself that wants to enjoy every single moment of my life (even the not so comfortable moments), and the part of me that wants someone to wake me up…when it’s all over.

The hard part about change is that there is still the remains of the decisions you made in the past. Sometimes those remains seem almost insurmountable. I know deep down they are not, but I just wanted to acknowledge that for today it seems like a lot. And sometimes it is hard trying to make several changes at once.

So that is where I am today, but the good part of it all is that I have changed enough to know that food is not the answer. So that is a pretty good place to be.

I did also want to say that I am teaming up with Kersten from Dear Diet Monster for a Healthy Lifestyle Virtual Book Club starting on July 15th. I am working on a button. The first book we are going to be reading is Deepak Chopra’s book called “What are You Hungry For?”. We would love as many bloggers and people to join in. We will aim to read about a book a month. I am very excited about doing this!!!

I hope that you guys have a great day:)

4 comments

  1. Kerstin says:

    Gosh, I would like to numb myself, too! I think we’ve talked about this before, making changes is all good but can be quite exhausting. I still often feel like I just want a break. And numb myself because that’s were I, still, feel safe. But you are so right: food is not the answer. And so keep taking it one step, one day, at a time. So glad I am not alone in this.

    So excited about the book club, I will also write about this on my blog later today.

    By the way, that video you posted is so spot on because to me this journey is all about waking up and going to the place we belong.

    xo

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